It's been awhile since I have been here to write. I've been coping with my new life and thinking of new ways to improve it. In September I was able to spend my one year anniversary with the love of my life, we'll call him Ben. It was an amazing day of my life especially since I've had long relationships before, my first relationship lasted a year and my second lasted almost three. With my first two relationships I had enjoyed the time I was with them but I had never had the feeling with them that I have with Ben. Ben literally give's me these feelings where I feel like I'm on cloud nine. When I talk to him I smile like a fool, only focus on him and feel like I'm his world. However, good things don't always go the right way. He's friends with a lot of females, which I'm okay with, but when I see one of them posting on his facebook saying he needs to text her or call her and that she thinks he's silly and whatnot. It wouldn't bother me if she didn't like and comment on almost every single one of his posts. Currently he is in another state, and what a coincidence, so is she. All I can think about is what if he is cheating on me with her. She calls him a nickname and everything which pisses me off because I personally like to call him his full name and I'm the only one who does it, but he doesn't like it but yet she can sit there and call him a name that sounds like something you would call a baby. On top of HER he hasn't told his parents about me, or his family. When we say I love you not once does he say it in front of them. He is visiting me for the holidays and he posted that on facebook but he not once said visiting his girlfriend, he said he was visiting a girl he met for the holidays. I'm not someone who curse's but what the fuck dude. I'm your girlfriend, you even asked me to marry you. How can we have a relationship if you can't even tell people about me? How do I know you wont tell people about me because you really have a girlfriend there as well? I have cried over it so many time's but I never bother telling him how I feel because I know how it'll go. He'll reassure me, tell me I have nothing to worry about and then tell me he will tell everyone as soon as he visits during the holidays. Yeah, that sure sounds like the perfect relationship. I don't think I ask for much, I just want to be able to talk to his mom about plans to go to lunch together or talk to his sisters about boys or how they need advice. Or even talk to his dad about things he used to do. I feel like I'll never get that, and I don't know what to. I guess only time can tell....
Skyla Annabelle Cormier
Skyla Annabelle Cormier
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